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First of all, DIGI I just wanna give you a big damn shit ! You screw all the thing of me !!!
Honestly, I was not really like this kind shit feeling when its my holiday
Everything happen on me
CHEAT ON YOU? Hell NO !
Flirt with other girl? I dont even give a damn shit on other girl !
Even though she was my friend since me in primary school.
We just a close friend and might even better than other girl's friend just like you always call them "BRO"
Thats all ntg more than close friend between me n her.
Then how about yours? Close friends with flirty language ?
Care ? Miss ? Or what else?
Im really sick of it and i dont even want to bother at all
and also I already used to it
And mine case just a photo and make us until like that
Is it me cant capture a girl's friend photo even Im not in that photo?
If it is, then how your photo? stand just a few miles beside ? What is that ?
Rules tell us that girls always right and boys was wrong all the time?
Well, this is SHIT !!!
Why you can do like this and me cant?
Because your horoscope is friendly ? and mine wasn't ?
Personality is depends on yourself and not use horoscope as excuse !
And everytime You just for your friend and doesnt consider yourself
Its night and want to go back your hostel by yourself and your friends was stay at others are hostel
that party is so important? Got marks can help you on your examination?
Whats the point you want to go and yourself back alone in night? Already happen few case in your U d
And you still wan like this.
Whatever, whenever
You want ,just go for it,I care I stop in the end ,We cant avoid argument.


Shit you 2012!
SUCKS X"MAS !!!

Swag's life

Welcome back, Im here again.
Recently there alot of thing happen between me and you
I dont know what should i said, me and your opinion wont same sometimes.
Is it the main reason always cause us argue all the time?
I wish to solve it everytime, but our tone wont help us at all.
You have your opinion and i have mine.
Sometimes i admit that i want you follow my way all the time.
but i know that you wont, maybe this is my attitude? Im selfish guy, sorry =(

Our distance is getting far and far again, not just physically and also mentally
Your birthday is getting near, and me cant be the first one who help you to celebrate, =X
when you back , i will celebrate for you again,okay?

Honestly,some times i wish that you beside me all the time,so that me can go out with you anytime.
But now ...
haizzzz
I wish you were here
I wish that time can flash back to before
I wish that everyday when i woke up,you were beside me too

Well,and i wish that I can skip those December and fast forward to January =(
I just wish....
Hope that i can stay with you forever  <3 br="br">
(4*3) 
(5*3)(6*3)(8*3)(3*2)
(9*3)(6*3)(8*2)

我回来了 最近也不知在忙些什么 总有忙不完的东西和烦恼

也不知道这些烦恼从哪儿冒出来 我想 来来去去都是那件事吧 

多希望活在没有烦恼的日子 

多希望有一个人能聆听我的倾诉 

多希望有一个人能了解我的性格

多希望有一个人能明白我的思想

不知不觉 你也去了那儿一个月多

有些事或许已经改变了 可是还是改变不了某些事

我真的不知道为什么 

有时在某些情况下 我希望你能明白我所做的决定 

而不是用一些讽刺的语调 

人大了 要顾虑的东西也会越来越多

我的立场 可能我只是在顾着我自己 

我的自私和我要面子的性格 

我不想输 

我最近都很想去占有某些事或东西

变了，一切都变了

变好变坏 我也不知道

也不想去多想 

只想达到我的目标 其他的对我来说，到时才看吧 

懦夫

真的不够勇敢 请你原谅我的懦弱
我无法把握远距离的爱情 我不知该如何经营我们之间的爱情
也许 某天你会找到比我更好的人 
也许 我真的没有你想像中的那么好
也许 我没有珍惜你
没有把握的我 请你原谅 我并不是在逃避 
把我忘了 或许 在哪里也可以少了许多的烦恼  把我忘了 在哪里你可以开始新的生活
我没有报握 我也不想再耽误你的青春
没有我也许是种解脱 
我会一个人 好好的生活 适应着没有你的生活
可能这是残忍的决定 但它也是我们唯一能解决的方法
少了我的存在 你也少了一份负担 
少了我的出现 你也自由了 
可能 我无法让你幸福
我也该放手 让你自由去找你真正的幸福
说好的幸福 抱歉我没有做到
也许我 没有资格和你谈上幸福这两个字
耽误了你这几年 对不起 
谢谢你这几年来 一直在在体谅我的不成熟
辜负你了 这是我的错
你没错 我一点也不配得上你 

把我忘了
别再为我烦恼 为我生气
好好的为你前途去打拼吧 

monday blue. 27/3/12

Well I had no way to express for my feeling recently,so Im back to blogger.
yea,its hurt again. what to do? i had try my best again and again.but today I had realize that no matter how hard i try,the end still the same,wont change at all.its truth.and maybe Im not able to maintain my relationship very well.
You always told me that there was no different between science class and econ class. But no,distance always there. As usual,opinion always id the trouble maker.Second,your favorite and mine.Third,lifestyle.
Those are always make us tears and argue. Im fucking desperate about those trouble maker.

Yea ,maybe the previous me not able to care you or love you as you want.But when i try so hard to change and improve,there always have complain or new challenge pop out.Can someone teach me? lead me ?
okay,you say you want watch that drama live,so you go your friends house and watch,but alone with that guy until late night ka back? Really ? really? really? really chase drama until like this? i kinda don't understand,whats the different between live and watch on internet ? yea,everyone like to watch live football match,but want see live match or movie,we also see the situation right? Or should i close my eye and dont think about it? just let it be? Sometime I dint mention doesn't mean I dont mind,but please,stand at my side and think.
Maybe that guy is your 'bro'? or best friends? I dont know,that feeling telling me that guy seem like more suitable to enter your life than me. both of you have same topic chat? same opinion? same favorite? i dont know,maybe few time i open your facebook account,he sure come and chat with you? or maybe everyday also? yea i know its your privacy,but if you is me? what would you think?

Okay,you going other state study, I worry you dint have more details about your course, I ask for more information for you,but since we discuss, our opinion different again,when its different again,we argue again.
Okay, i dont speak o give any idea about your course,its just wan to avoid argument.
Since you gonna go d,so i try to make our days everyday happy and full of smile, but as i said,no matter how hard i try,or how many times i try, still the same. Then why should i try for? Sometime I dont know why I try so hard for? Try so hard to get tears cold and argue?

Or maybe me should not enter your life since we had meet.So we wont tears so bad.
Sorry,Im ain't perfect.
Maybe other guy will do.=)

09/11/11

I feel happy today,even though our plan is fail.
when we sit at car chit chat,I feel that you smile is back.
you're sweet when you smile. =D
Sorry i din't realize you stomachache today. Sorryyyy =X

I love you. <3

The feeling.

Finally,blogging's mood is back and I'm here.
Recently,we keep argue and cold,cause by temper ? communication? or tolerate?
Sometimes we are different situation.
Sometimes my voice is louder because I'm worry about you.
Sometimes You scold me is because of me.
Yea i know. But why we keep argue even thought we know that we are not purposely wanna to argue?
I had tried.but I'm failed.
Is it the challenge for every couple ?

And I found that,I had been dint see you really smile since the very last time.

 

How pretty when you smile
But I'm sorry I dint make you smile like this very long time.
I'm sorry. ='(

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were hereI'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

♥

The day after 365.=)

Well.,finally I'm back to blog again.
Many things happen in this few week.
Lets start form our big day: our 1 year anniversary.
We went gurney for Transformer.After movie,went to Harvest In for our dinner.
I enjoy the dinner with sweetheart.really,and thanks for the homemade little album.I love it so muchhhhhh.....
I love you.♥

p/s: Pic cant upload due the problem of the blogger.but will upload soon.=)

Okay,now i am working again,but this time me is working as office job.
honestly,I not really enjoy with the job ,not about the surrounding ,but is my job,its tired. really.
I'm waiting my diploma cert,so I can leave this place as fast as possible.


Recently,I keep thinking about 1 day you leave me.
We know that after STPM,mostly will go to university.But is at another state !
If one day you study at another state,I really don't know what should I do.
I really worry about that day,as you said,after stpm,still have 9 months,during this 9 months,we must smile.
I know ,but it also will come and you will go to another state study.
But that's your future,there is no reason to let me ask you don't go.
Try to get good result and go to better university.*this is me want you to do so.*
Maybe this is the challenge for us?
the day is getting lesser and lesser..but my love for you is getting more and more.
I love you.♥

Count Down For 1Hour and 55minutes !!!!!!

L.O.S.T

Where should I start? I don't know.
As title said ,I'm lost.Can anyone guide me from the way I lost?
I know there is nobody to help me.
This few day,seem like our distance is getting far and far and far.
Where is those feeling,those joke,those smile and where is the previous me?
I feel I had been change.I don't know why.
I know you facing exam now and you feel stress.
I know you need some care from me.
But,I can't even do anything,such a failure.
When you need some care,I just let you disappointed.
I;m Sorry.Really sorry.

We had pass our 10month.During this 10month,
I learn something--Freedom.
I think most of the couple know its very important for each of them.
And today,I finally know what is it really are.
I should know it earlier in the previous few month so We wont had a big argue.
Well,I thought that will be a part of nightmare in my life.
But now,it just a piece of layer of dust,and me just wipe it off.
And I make it this few day.
But there still a scar will never disappear.LOL*forget about it*
I just wanna to get back to the past that we smile,joke all the time,the feel when we start our relationship.That's all.


Nights

Crap

The currently mode :
DOWN until the max !!!!!!

Treasure. '')

 
Yea,treasure. Appreciate that.
Its start since April 2nd,the very first chat with her at facebook.
But our story start at May 29th.The moment you be my girl,I feel so proud. xD
Until now 9months and 3 weeks.
During this 9months and 3weeks, We celebrate our first anniversary at Fish market,after that we watch movie at gurney and we go paradise.
We celebrate your birthday at zm hostel after food fair.The ice-cream cake,and those present.I really try to make it until the best of the best.Hope you like it.hehe
My birthday-you come at my home midnight and you give me a surprise. The next day,we went to butterworth for Tambun and Sunway carnival.I love the bottle you give me and its was full of heart inside.Thanks you.
Next,Valentine days. You give the keychain and inside gt the rice with my name,but too bad,due to my careless,I lost it. Sorry.
Come to March,Its was the worst month for me.We argue twice, I know its was my fault and our relation in big trouble,due to my jealous,we argue,drop tears and cold.This feeling was sucks and I don't want our message tone like not very care.I don't want anymore.Really.Hate this feel 99.
Oh ya,Not I don't allow you to drive,it just I worry about you,wait you train more stable,I let you fetch to anywhere.okay? haha
You appear in my life,I feel proud.
You not allow me to say any rude word,I will not to say any of it .Okay? Promise.haha
You are the treasure that I mention on Tittle. Yea is you.Mah Suh Wei.
I love you From My HEART. You had been become part of my life.
I Love you.

人生
起起跌跌后
会有雨过天晴的时候。

March in 2011

How about I start with this :
In the middle of March,we made the bad memories.
Those bad memories just vanish one by one by the time had pass.
Of all the things I still remember.
Lets be honest,the feeling still remain in my hearts.
I just made the empty promise.sorry
Nothing to lose but everything to gain.
After express on that night,it all seems so clear.
I am just alone on the road side,nobody else.
Tear me down like an old abandoned house.
And now I'm picking up the pieces,putting our memory back together.

Well,the precious week was my nightmare.I really hate these feel,really.
Why every time still the same? The feel wont change,remain the same.
Every time will left the scars that I not willing to have in our memories,and it will remind me again.
Jealous,yea I am JEALOUS.
I wish that these feeling don't even come to me again.
And we never knew when and we never knew how
I dont't want end up here the way we are.
Every tiny single word are part of my nightmare.
Please god,can you don't challenge me again? I am not strong as you think.
I wan to get back those feel like we had before.
But the only thing I can sure that,my love for you wont end up like this if I still can breath.
Its 3am now,night world.

The past-Feb

It has been a month ago I din't update my blog.But now I am back again.LOL
Okay,memory flash back to Feb,during CNY.
Hang out with friends,buddy,gamble as usual,
The most important is my birthday.haha
Thanks for the wishes guy,and friends and her.She is the first person who celebrate with me on my birthday.
Thanks for the cake,and the present.I love it mush.=)
I had a nice birthday in this year.appreciate.
Well,photo tell you how was my birthday :

             

 

Well,recently there is a lot of problem between me and her.But it doesn't make our relation far,but more love each other.Thanks for giving the present and those memory. I love you ♥

Memory flash back.=)

Hey,I am back to my blog again..haha.
Well,just celebrate our 7th anniversary last week before she went to Perlis.
Fetch her at school and went back to wait she bath and prepare.
After prepare,as promise,I bring her went to eat laksa.=)
The next station-Toy Museum.
That day conclusion-FUN.hahhahaha
Well.photo tel:

  


   
It's cute,I mean her but not the stich.haha









Omg! she touched mickey's hand?xDD

Indiana Jones.

 FREEZE! x)

Ninja turtles.

He & She.






After visit the Toy Museum,went to the beach,I think she fall asleep at there.=)

Guess who?





Well,I really enjoy that day,thanks you for accompany me.I appreciate and I love you ♥
 

Ends the story with this.

I like this photo.=)

7.30am

Let me ask you a question.
What if you are playing the wedding melody to your lover while she is walk into church and she holding another guys hand's?
LOL..
Well,everyone will jealous on everything,especially LOVE.
Many couple breaks up because of it.
What if  you mention that you are jealous and she had her own reason,what will you do?
What if you are caring about her and she just reply you 'Oh'.
What if both of you plan to dating and suddenly she just cancel it with her reason?
What if...I sad?.
What if....tomorrow is the end of the world?
It is so many "what if" and we can't even know what will happen next.
You are perfect but I'm not,in fact its true.
I broke my promise,I drop my tears at last.
What to do?

Nightmare.

Hmmmm....Just back from Coffee Island with her,zm n liz.
Well,conclusion for today,I believe that both of us are not enjoy as well.
Why?
I feel that recently I am in the bad temper.I don't know why?
I will easily get angry without any reason,when I can't get the thing what I want,the temper is coming to visit me.I hate this feel.It just stick with me.I wish I smile all the time and without any bad temper as usual.
I can't even joke.
I can't even reply politely.
I scare due to my bad temper will cause our story end,I don't wish this will happen between us.Really!
But in this few day,that is something between us and make us not happy and I don't know what is it.
I admit that I did something wrong sometime.Sorry.
Or maybe mine bad temper ?
Is it the end is getting nearer ?
Is it our story end up like this?
Today,my temper is getting up again and I don't know why,sorry to her .I am not purposely.
I promise I will stay away as far as I can before CNY and my birthday.
I do not wish to pass my CNY and my birthday with a bad temper.
Its SUCK! really sucks.

Sometimes I am not a Mr.NiceGuy.
Sorry to those I recently give you a damn without any reason.
Sorry for my bad temper.
Just sorry.
That's all.
Nights

Plan?

Lets talk about recently,hmmmm..I was totally wasting my time and i was doing nothing.WTF
Plan to study at college,to fill up my FREE TIME so that I can gain an extra knowledge.What a good plan huh?
Someone ask me,would you handle it?
Here is my plan:
Monday-Frinday College. I am still considering which course should I choose.==

Saturday and Sunday Adobe. It is interesting,but too bad,just twice a week.
Well,belum try belum tau.hhahaha
hiong hiong ki,bo dai ji.=)

Okay,what I wanna say that,if you really hate that some people calling you in other name,you better stop calling other people fucking name.
Its same to you if you say to that people,Its fair.
Please,need people respect you,Respect other at first.
I am not trying to say who else,who did it,its just my opinion.
That's all.

The day.

2010 is gonna end.2011 is coming soon.
That's mean I had my new semester.I had promise my self,I must hardworking than last semester.I had been warn.so? Hope i can done what I had promise.

I still remember that day June 29th,the first day.
Until today,we had been together 5month and 29day.
During this 5month
We smile
We play
We joke
But Sometimes it also happen something that make us unhappy.
and sorry that i did something wrong.=X
This coming 29th,it was our the 6th month,half year anniversary.
Too bad she was told me this morning that day she is still at KL,and she will back on 30th.=(
Haha,its okay,cause we still have our the 7th 8th and until the coming next few month,or year?=D
Laopo,enjoy your trip.I love you.

Okay,my dad had told me something.
Travel to China during CNY.==
that's mean I can't celebrate my birthday with friends.
I had been wait my birthday for a long time.
Should I go? Hmmmm
Still thinking.LOL